The day I tried to win
I walled in the blood and mud with all the other pigs
And I learned that I was a liar

Standing in the light, always sitting on the line
Never on a side, always wanting to be right
Standing in the light, I never wanted to be right
Now I'm attracted by the light

The world was over today
The time is already gone
Throw your mind in the sea
Eternity doesn't last very long

I can tell we're alive because your blood just blended with
Mine
And the angels of heaven never sacrificed a sensation as pure
As the cut of this knife
And the wisdom contained in the telepathy of fear
Solidified our suffering into the droning sound I still hear

my whole existence is flawed
you get me closer to god
you can have my isolation, you can have the hate that it brings
you can have my absence of faith, you can have my everything
....
help me tear down my reason, help me its' your sex I can smell
help me you make me perfect, help me become somebody else

Every time that I stare into the sun
Angel dust and my dress just comes undone
And every time that I stare into the sun
Be a model or just look like one

If you live through this with me
I swear that I will die for you
And if you live through this with me
I swear that I will die for you

You're hungry, but I'm starving
He cuts you down from the tree
He keeps you in a box by the bed
Alive but just barely

He said, "I'm your lover, I'm your friend
I'm purity, hit me again"
With a bullet, number one
Kill the family, save the son himself, himself

Ich bin die umstürzlerische Liebe
Der Gegensex
Jeder Tag kostet mich Wunden
Dabei bin ich schon jetzt
Zerschunden und völlig blutverschmiert
....
An Stelle meiner Seele
An der Stelle meiner Seele
Meine Seele brennt

Cute girls watch, when I eat ether
Suck me under, maybe forever my friends

I now know the depths I reach are limitless

Rotten sun spits on your raw hide
As you dance to the sound of a suicide

And I laugh as I drift in the wind

everynight I burn
everynight I fall again

wasted views
thats all they see blue
hot blood guild
optic nerve
with the right attitude
you will succeed blue
self abusive recluse
too late for me
make shifting peace
settling crazy things
keep your eyes open
soft spoken changes nothing
a view so cruel
    

you don't know just how I feel
I stay inside my bed
I have lived so many lives all in my head
don't tell me that you care
there really isn't anything, is there?
you would know, wouldn't you?
you extend your hand to those who suffer
to those who know what it really feels like
to those who've had a taste
like that means something
and oh so sick I am
and maybe I don't have a choice
and maybe that is all I have
and maybe this is a cry for help
I do not want this

It doesn't matter if we all die
Ambition in the back of a black car
In a high building there is so much to do
Going home time, a story on the radio
....
Waiting for the death blow
....
Stroking your hair as the patriots are shot
Fighting for freedom on the television
Sharing the world with slaughtered pigs
Have we got everything? She struggles to get away
....
Caressing an old man and painting a lifeless face
Just a piece of new meat in a clean room

motion sickness is screaming
stab cut retard
my mind
my mind
my mind

remorse
a heartless soul
senseless
no apparent self control

I visit it every day
Time passes but i can't stay away
Im lonely
I have no one
Its just me and my gun
Got my gun
A revolution
Against me
My worst enemy
I dont have no one
I dont want no one

So I take my face
And bash it into a mirror
I won't have to see the pain
Pain, pain
This state is elevating
As the hurt turns into hating
Anticipating all the fucked up feelings again

The empty bodies stand at rest
Casualties of their own flesh
Afflicted by their dispossession
But nobody's ever knew

Leenden, tindrande ögon,
vänliga hälsningar får mig att vilja spy
Uppmärksamhet som de trånar efter,
har ingen betydelse för mig

One more day like today and I'll kill you
A desire for flesh and real blood
And I'll watch you drown in the shower
Push my life through your open eyes
I must fight this sickness
Find a cure
I must fight this sickness

Alone, I pace and I tear at my skin and my hair
Burn myself for some relief
For a sick fucking joke of a life
The punchline is when I die
And come back as me for eternity
Just to fuck up everyday

sleepless nights of agony
wretched and twitching in a pool of sweat
searching for the words to say
babble spills out of my mouth
staring into space
i didn't hear what you said
i wish i could explain what's wrong with me
why can't i think straight
i'm lost because i think too much
about...
misery of life

I wanna be you, I wanna be you
Say the things you do, say the things you do
I want to kill myself, I want to kill myself
Come back as you, come back as you

Im living why, oh why oh why
Im living why, oh why oh why

 a pain that
never dies crawls up the back and waits for the lies tall
climb edges edges exhausts no night climbing higher
...... crawls wicked wire cut throat explodes
singing of the the vein no desire

smothered hope fly from sorrow for a new divine tomorrow
i just don't want to know anymore
life shifts up and down everybody knows it's wrong
why don't you care?